He (the bae) watches me as if everything I do is magical and powerful. This scares the shit out of me.
This morning I participated in The Broke Man’s Half Marathon with Sandra. We signed up for the 1/2 Marathon but because of missing a turn we only ran 10 miles—which I was happy for because that meant I could make it on time to brunch with lovely ladies of color from graduate school—none in my program. I ordered two breakfasts and a bloody mary because yes. Went home constructed some furniture for a neighbor. Then headed to an hour and a half relaxation yoga class with Neil. It was a good, wonderful, Sunday to be concluded with some reading of Memorias de Mamá Blanca.
I’m not sure succeed is the word…as more so persevere. I have to persevere through graduate school. I am enjoying it but it is sometimes frustrating, difficult, structured in ways I have difficulties understanding and navigating.
My friend 光 visited me the past few days and I was tempted to skip class (something I don’t do—seriously I went the first four years of undergrad never missing a class) so I could spend the day with him. But he reminded me of this:
“Out of 100 Chicano/a elementary school students, 44 will graduate from high school, 26 will enroll in either a community college or four-year university, but only 7 will graduate with a bachelors degree; only 2 will complete a professional or graduate degree and 0.2 will earn a doctorate.
…At full professor level, Latinas made up 1,254 of those positions…and white women held almost 40,000 full professorships.”
(Chronicle of Higher Education Almanac, 2009 )
And yes, he did remind me of those exact numbers as we read from “ ‘I don’t belong here': Chicanas/Latinas at a Hispanic serving Institution Creating Community Through Muxerista Mentoring“. He scolded me “If ya don’t go you are going to fuck up the statistics, it is vital you go”.
If I don’t go class, my chances of becoming that 0.2 that earn a doctorate is threatened. I have already defied some odds; I am the first woman on either side of my family to graduate high school (first person–male or female– on my mom’s side), I am the first person on either side of my family to graduate from university, I am the first in my family to attend graduate school…and damn it has been a long winding road.
I want to be part of that 0.2% of Latinas that earn a doctorate. When 1 out 4 students in K-12 in this country is now Latino and yet they aren’t represented in academia, and I have the opportunity and privilege to be in that role, it isn’t just something I have to do for me, but for my community. So, yeah I went to class and class was a lot of fun and super stimulating…now if I can just preserver for a few more years.
2015 has been physically a rough year.
Started out the year with a bum knee and hip-flexor, after I hurt them on a late fall, early winter trail run half marathon.
In the Spring my knee and for the most part my hip-flexor better, I had to have surgery on my lady bits. Threw my hormones for a loop, and knocked my whole body out.
Then in the fall had a serious concussion after Pancho Villa the dog head butted me. I lost consciousness, came to and couldn’t read or write, or balance myself.
I am feeling much better (other than this cold I currently have) and am really looking forward to athletically kicking ass in 2016.
A tentative list of some bike tours, USAT sanctioned triathlon races, and 1/2 marathons for 2016. I would still like to add a push-pull competition, maybe a full marathon in the fall, and really anything to fill in those empty months. As always, I love it when friends join me and if there is some kind of sporty thing you are already planning on or would like to plan, I’m all about adding and adjusting this calendar.
17th, Columbus, Ohio, USA, Half-Marathon
Broke Man’s Winter Warm-Up: This is a no frills race with multiple options on distances from 3.5 miles to 13.1 miles. I have registered for the 13.1 mile course. I have done Broke Man races before and have really enjoyed them.
6th, Columbus, Ohio, USA, Indoor Triathlon
OSU Indoor Triathlon: This is a pretty chill triathlon, and is memorable to me as the one my wonderful friend Melanie did with me while she was nine months pregnant. It is completed within the OSU gym and is completed by time and then afterwards the distance with time is calculated to estimate time needed to complete a sprint distance triathlon. In total this is a 10 minute indoor pool swim, a 20 minute stationary bike ride, and a 15 minute run on an indoor track.
6th, Bogotá, Colombia, 10km run
Run Tour Avianca: 10km run in urban setting of Bogotá Colombia. Totally just doing this for fun if I make it down to Colombia in March.
9th, Valle Del Bravo, México, Olympic Distance Triathlon,
Triatlón Valle de Bravo 2016: This is a sanctioned race, which I have competed in before. Last time, I over swam the swim and swam off course. This race does have shorter and less competitive distances for those who are interested. It is only a little over an hour out side of Mexico City. Course was well maintained and decently well marked.
17th Cincinnati, Ohio, 1/2 Marathon
Cincinnati Broke Man’s Half Marathon: Another run in the Broke Man series. I figure this is just part of good training for the 1/2 Ironman in August.
1st Lorain, Ohio, 1/2 Marathon
Lorain Broke Man’s Half Marathon: Again a no-frills race, 1/2 marathon…using it as a training run for the bigger races in late summer early fall.
7&8th, Columbus, Ohio to South Portsmouth, Kentucky, Bike Tour
Tour Of the Scioto River Valley (TOSRV): This is a fully supported ride, our gear is carried for us, we camp out on the Ohio River and then turn around and come back the next day. I’ve done this ride a few times and find it very enjoyable. There are awesome SAG stops every 25 miles and the route is pretty flat. It is approximately 105 miles each day, so a total of about 210 miles.
20-22, Little Smokies, Shawnee, Ohio, USA, Triathlon
American Triple-T: “3-days, 4-triathlons, 140+ miles, 1-epic event” It is a sprint distance tri, two Olympic distance tris, and one 1/2 ironman distance tri. I am unsure about this but need to decide by January 5th…because then the price will go up. I’ve really wanted to take part in this but there is a Mexican sanctioned race I can do in my home state of Guerrero this same weekend and try to qualify for worlds…I am unsure so including both.
21, Ixtapa, Guerrero, México, Olympic Distance Triathlon,
Triatlón Ixtapa, 2016: This is a sanctioned race. I have not competed here before and am a bit nervous as it is supposed to be very humid and hilly. However, it gives me one more shot at worlds.
5th Füssen, Germany, Bike Tour
Allgäuer Radltour 2016: This is a 120km supported bike tour. This area is mountainous
and I hate hills but the timing and area is perfect. From Füssen to Moosburg (where I studied) is only 180km so I can also visit my friends before/after the ride.
30th, Teques, Morelos, México, Olympic Distance triathlon
Triatlón Tequesquitengo 2016: This is a sanctioned race. I have competed here before but only as part of a relay time–it was really hot. It might give me one more shot at worlds but depends on the cut off date for qualifying.
12-14th, Nashville, Indiana, USA, Bike Tour & Camping
Tour de Upland: “The best weekend of the year is back August 12-14 2016! All the biking, camping, beer, and live music you can handle.” It is put on by the Upland Brewing Company. I’ve done this weekend trip a few times now and found it to be quite enjoyable. Biking is only supported on the Saturdays and all SAG stops have beer. They have different routes you can take varying in distance usually between 10-110miles…I imagine because I have a 1/2 ironman the following weekend I will only be cycling about 20 miles (it is also very hilly) and I won’t be drinking…so lots of time for me in the pool and just hanging out.
21st, Delaware, Ohio, USA, 1/2 Ironman Triathlon
Ironman 70.3 Ohio: 1.2mile swim, 56 mile bike, 13.1mile run. I hope to seriously train for this race and do the course multiple times before the race, as I live maybe half an hour from the site. If you want to go out and do this course with me, at any time, holla’.
11-18, Cozumel, Mexico, Triathlon Worlds
World Triathlon Age Group Championships: This only happens if I qualify and I make the team.
2nd, Columbus, Ohio, USA, 1/2 marathon
Columbus Broke Man’s Half Marathon: Again a no-frills race, 1/2 marathon…using it as a maintaining run.
8th, Acapulco, Guerrero, México, Olympic Distance Triathlon,
Triatlón Acapulco 2016: I am looking forward to this because hopefully I will be in good condition from a solid spring, summer and fall of training and if I can do well at this race I can qualify for 2017 worlds.
I have some great news. After a little more than a year of having my first full-time 9-5 job, I quit. I am glad to have had that experience and to realize how wonderful it was to not have ever done that before. By leaving work, I am also temporarily leaving my PhD program, this is good news. I have been in desperate need of a break, to read more, to write more, and to finish this damn book. I am excited for this time. I’ve already started reading more books of transcendentalism, self-reliance and coming-of-age stories—as I develop into a new phase of life.
I had not written as much this year, afraid to share about that which has taken up most of my time and any repercussions that might come from sharing. My time being occupied also limited my exercise and training. I still want to go to age-group worlds. Now, I get to focus on that as well. I get to focus on me and the things that give the foundation of me.
This reminds me of a short video, Lonnie sent me, that on occasion I watch to remind myself what is NOT the point of life.
A short hand-drawn animation created in Adobe Flash and After Effects about one mans reflection on his life. Music by Guided by Voices.