Yes, I am Bi

I was about 15 years old and my father made a comment to me about being bi-racial. I had never thought of it that way, never even considerd myself that and I guess I still don’t. I think of race as having to do with skin tone. I am white. Never confuesed with being anything but white. I am culturally Mexican, I am bi-cultural but I just don’t seem myself as bi-racial. I do sometimes refer to myself as a “halfie” or as “mixed” so it could be that I just really dislike the term “bi-racial”. A black friend of mine told me that all “halfies” have race identity issues and that I couldn’t be both I had to choose to be one or the other…I think the second part of that is BS. I can be both. Why can’t I be a white-Mexican? Just as there are African-Latinos? I will admit that I have race issues. In fact my friend Miles, describes it as a defining characteristic. My sister, Cristina, wrote a piece titled “Colonize This!” for a book of the same title. Her piece was how our Irish father had colonized our Mexican mother, and how she would not let herself be colonized (“The collection takes its title from an essay by Cristina Tzintzun, whose Mexican mother and white father personified the colonial experience“). She wrote of her difficulties of dating white men. I feel the same way, I have difficulites trusting white men. I am a racisit against my own people.
Anyway, none of this is new to any of you regular readers but the reason I wanted to bring it up is because recently Immortal Technique friendstered me the message

“I can tell your used to dealing with whiteboys and assimilated latinos stay in your bubble and leave the real world to people that live in it “.

I find this hillarious. Me hanging out too much with White boys? Me and assimilated Latinos? Damn I don’t know when that happened and I didn’t notice it. I guess today when I head over to Olga and Rosa’s house I will be hanging out with assimilated Latinos? Considering that Olga sometimes forgets to speak to me in Spanish and goes off in Zapotec? Or that Rosa is going to school for the first time in 5 years and barely speaks spanish? Or prehaps I will be hanging out with assimilated Latinos tonight when I go to Columbus’ westside to the Christmas Eve party for Mexicanos who are here without families? Yeah, me and assimilated Latinos and white people. Exactly, that is who the I hang out with. Anyone, who knows me at all can testify that I am not to used to hanging out with “white boys and assimilated latinos”

Anyway, I am adding the conversation between Immortal Technique and I to each other because I found it slightly entertaining.

> Elenamary wrote:
Felipe,

Hope all is well. Tis cool, if you are
wondering “who the hell this woman writing you
is”. Anyway, I saw you at SpringFest in
Columbus, Ohio.

I am in Washington DC right now. I was riding
the green line last night and saw a flyer for the Hip
Hop Benefit Show on U street. Anyway, looking
forward to seeing you perform again.

Good luck tomorrow night,
Elenamary

> Immortal wrote:
I remember you, the buxom, drunk young lady who
was actually an articulate young college student
who had a broken foot and was tryna dull the pain.
I appreciate your prolonged support for the cause
and I appreciate the shout out, keeop working
hard in school and make something of yourself.

Technique

> Elenamary wrote:
Aye Mi’jo,

You know I find myself oddly drawn to you.
Before your most recent response I would have
described you as an egotistical man who takes himself
way to seriously, but now, well, maybe you do take
yourself too seriously, but I have this desire to
debate with you political ideologies. You seemed
to have the sense (and implied) that I have no
political beliefs or a stance on the socio-
economic status of “our people”
and yet I would be willing to place much faith in the fact
that I probably know more than you could imagine.
If you are up for some good food, and even
better conversation (y un poco de desmadre) contact
me in January before your next show in DC.

Con cariño,
Elenamary

> Immortal wrote:

Know more than I could imagine, that’s a stretch
that’s gonna pull a muscle someday. As for
implying something I think you take jest to
seriously, and it’s understandble since I guess
jokes are difficult in this electronic context. As for
taking myself “too seriously”, I think someone in
my position would rather do that than the opposite
side of the spectrum, I dont wanna be the drunk
rambling revolutionary who swears that if he
sobered up, acted right and epxressed himself
better his ideas would make sense.

Felipe or Tech, whichever…

> Elenamary wrote:
man you are arrogant, yeah i would make you
pull some muscles, and you know i wouldn’t call you
tech, felipe yes, but mostly likely, i’d like to scream my own name with you.
cuidate,
Elenamary

> Immortal wrote:
I’m about as arrogant as you can be
condescending. That said, scream whatever you
want, just cook afterward.

Rompe Toto.

> Elenamary wrote:

Trying to push buttons? Yeah I’ll cook
depending on how good your rompe-toto is
and if you go down too.
I am done now,
Elenamary

> Immortal wrote:

How does one achieve the status of being
entertaining and equally as fuckin corny.

Peace.